Fukken Daved

life update

2009-11-05T02:29:00Z

So, I was in the mood to update this in case anyone might read it who isn't up to date with what's going on in my life. Nothing amazing, just a summary of what's going on with me lately. Won't be too long because I want to go to bed.

Finished undergrad, got into graduate school in Aero Eng with NC State University
Got a position as a research assistant working in VA near NASA LaRC
Now over halfway through 2 year program to get Master's and hoping I will survive that long
Classes and research have been far more difficult than I ever imagined
Stress levels over the past year and change have been higher and longer than any time in my life
High stress led me to look for outlets, tried exercise, drinking, etc, eventually started cutting myself
Eventually landed in the hospital for stitches after a bad cut
Told parents about cutting habits and stopped doing it so far
Suffering from chronic fatigue and migraines that come around every 4-8 weeks
Hate my job and where my life is right now
Really regret the decision to go to graduate school, one of the worst of my life
Feel stressed and uncertain about what I want to do with my life, if anything

So, over a year's worth of happenings in a short list. Scintillating. Now I'm going to bed because I've had a migraine coming on for some time and sleep is the only thing that ever helps. Bye.

dave424 @ 2009-06-21T01:13:00

2009-06-21T05:13:18Z

oh

hello

dave424 @ 2007-07-15T23:16:00

2007-07-16T03:16:54Z

dave424 @ 2007-07-04T12:35:00

2007-07-04T16:46:03Z

# Post an Entry
Last updated 11 weeks ago

luls

Position as a research assistant on the ORNL-UT reactor project in K-town kinda fell though, so I am working at Kroger again. At least I got a raise, but the pay still sucks. So, that is all I am doing this summer. Visited family up north last week, and by chance my aunt ended up in the ICU just before my brother and I flew up. She's diabetic, and her blood sugar was waaaay high. Her diabetes hadn't been diagnosed before, so who knows how long she's had it. Also in early August I'm going to the beach and staying in a condo owned by one of the other nurses my mom works with. Okay, that's all I'm doing this summer. Promise.

Also junk:

Oh, also happy 4th. almost forgot

dave424 @ 2007-04-12T09:58:00

2007-04-12T14:01:20Z

dave424 @ 2007-02-24T15:38:00

2007-02-24T20:41:34Z

hay

I'm blowing off any responsibility today, so I'm enjoying my day. My roommate left to do something with his club, so I have peace. It's been nice (although strange) since he decided to see what it would be like if he didn't speak. It's been nice that I don't have to listen to him, though. I'm just sitting home listening to music, watching TV, and playing games all day. :)

How are you?

dave424 @ 2007-02-13T20:14:00

2007-02-14T01:15:53Z

I never posted these on here before. They might be new for you, so if they are, great. If not, enjoy a blast from the past.

Photos

2007-01-06T05:12:49Z

For non-Wonderlander livejournallers

dave424 @ 2006-12-19T19:42:00

2006-12-19T23:42:36Z

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dave424 @ 2006-12-04T23:31:00

2006-12-05T03:31:01Z

You are The Hermit

Prudence, Caution, Deliberation.

The Hermit points to all things hidden, such as knowledge and inspiration,hidden enemies. The illumination is from within, and retirement from participation in current events.

The Hermit is a card of introspection, analysis and, well, virginity. You do not desire to socialize; the card indicates, instead, a desire for peace and solitude. You prefer to take the time to think, organize, ruminate, take stock. There may be feelings of frustration and discontent but these feelings eventually lead to enlightenment, illumination, clarity.

The Hermit represents a wise, inspirational person, friend, teacher, therapist. This a person who can shine a light on things that were previously mysterious and confusing.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

dave424 @ 2006-12-03T02:41:00

2006-12-03T06:41:17Z

Is Dave making a real entry? Not quite, didn't mean to get your hopes up there.

Semester's almost up here at school: 2 more days of classes and 4 exams to take. Worried about passing my analysis class, as Frankel is a huge dick on grading. Everything else is good, A's and B's with a little luck. (That ought to say something about his teaching ability, comparing my grade in his class to all my others). I should be able to go back home either the evening of the 14th or the 15th. It's been a long semester, and I think I'll be lazy and not work over Christmas.

For those who might have missed it before and still care (probably not many of you), I've had a new cellphone for a while, so let me know if you need my new number. It's got a camera, which is neat. I'm not one of those people who has to get one of those top-of-the-line fancy phones, so having a little camera is a step up.

I never know what to say in these things, and I'm bad at communicating expression. Probably why I haven't updated in months.

Can't wait to get home for a while. Miss the family and friends. Probably won't see any friends, but at least I'll have some time with the fam.

Today I downloaded Finnish symphonic metal from a Russian website that I was directed to by a Dutch guy I met on a website started by a Canadian girl. (lol, internets)

I've run out of things to say. Gute nacht.

dave424 @ 2006-11-10T00:03:00

2006-11-10T04:03:36Z

hello

dave424 @ 2006-06-29T22:49:00

2006-06-30T02:54:38Z

Music time!

Plain - English
Bold - Japanese
Italic - Instrumental
* - German
** - French

Beatles - Come Together
*Beethoven - Ode To Joy (Choir)
Beulah - Gravity's Bringing Us Down
GO!GO!7188 - Aoi Kiretsu
GO!GO!7188 - Pepper Keibu
HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR - Over
I've - Hane
Kosuke Yamashita - Kidou Suru KOS-MOS
Kosuke Yamashita - Xenosaga Main Title
**Kuniaki Haishima - ARKAN Part 1
Kuniaki Haishima - VF-Zero
Mizuki Nana - SUPER GENERATION
Neutral Milk Hotel - In the Aeroplane Over the Sea
Ryou Kunihiko - Silhouette of a Breeze
Sloppy Meat Eaters - Nobody Likes Me
UNDER17 - ICHIGO GO! GO!
Yousei Teikoku - Chinmoku No Mayu
Yousei Teikuni - Kokou no Sousei

http://rapidshare.de/files/24522888/musicpack3.rar.html

dave424 @ 2006-06-13T12:38:00

2006-06-13T16:43:53Z

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?
blue

2. Honestly, what's on your mind right now?
how big my credit card bill will be this month

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
sitting on my ass <3

4. Honestly, what did you do today?
I stayed up til 4am talking to Tony, Benny, and Phil, so I just woke up (noonish)

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
not really. Not exactly hideous though, either

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
I havent had time to do anything yet >_>

7. Honestly, do you watch the Disney channel?
it's been a long time

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
I don't guess so

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?
chatting on MSN

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
no

11. Honestly, what is your mood right now?
tired

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
I eat too much ;o

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
no one particular person, no

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
not really

15. Honestly, do you dislike someone right now?
I dislike a lot of people f>_>

16. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?
uh

17. Honestly, are you loyal?
I like to think so

18. Honestly, are you in denial?
of what?

19. Honestly, would you rather be having sex right now?
a sex is fine too

20. Honestly, what is your purpose in life?
to fart around. Don't let anyone tell you different

21. Honestly, do you like someone?
I like lots of people
...in that way.

dave424 @ 2006-05-16T11:34:00

2006-05-16T15:35:23Z

Hooray, victoly.

dave424 @ 2006-05-05T11:04:00

2006-05-05T15:10:26Z

You know you use the internet too much when you get annoyed at taking ten minutes to get from a flash with music to an mp3 of a Finnish folk song.

Siellä oli lystiä soiton jäläkeen
sain minä kerran sytkyyttee.
Kottiin ko mäntii ni ämmä se riitelj
ja Ieva jo alako nyyhkyytteek.
Minä sanon Ievalle mitäpä se haittaa
laskemma vielähi laiasta laitaa.
Salivili.

Internet. <3

dave424 @ 2006-05-02T11:48:00

2006-05-02T15:48:10Z

"If there is someone on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal."

<3

dave424 @ 2006-04-17T14:55:00

2006-04-17T19:01:33Z

How do I stole from Tom?

Do you have:
(x) your own cell phone
(x) a tv in your bedroom
(x) an ipod
( ) a photo printer
( ) your own phone line
( ) TiVo or a generic digital video recorder
(x) high-speed internet access
( ) a surround sound system in bedroom
(x) dvd player in bedroom
(x) at least a hundred DVDs
(x) a childfree bathroom
( ) your own in-house office
( ) a pool
( ) a guest house
( ) a game room
( ) a queen-size bed or larger
( ) a stocked bar
( ) a working dishwasher
( ) an icemaker
(x) a working washing machine and dryer (question at this point, should I be counting my dorm room or my house? ¯\(o_o)/¯)
( ) more than 20 pairs of shoes
( ) at least ten things from a designer store
( ) expensive sunglasses
( ) framed authentic art
( ) Egyptian cotton sheets or towels
( ) a multi-speed bike
( ) a gym membership
( ) large exercise equipment at home
( ) your own set of golf clubs (old old old hand-me-downs)
( ) a pool table (old, broken, and covered in our clean laundry and piles of "to-be-ironed" clothes)
( ) a tennis court
(x) local access to a lake, large pond, or the sea
( ) your own pair of skis
(x) enough camping gear for a weekend trip in an isolated area (parents do, i don't personally)
( ) a boat
( ) a jet ski
( ) a neighborhood committee membership
( ) a beach house or a vacation house/cabin (farmhouse)
( ) wealthy family members
(x) two or more family cars
( ) a walk-in closet or pantry
(x) a yard
(x) a hammock
( ) a personal trainer
(x) good credit
( ) expensive jewelry
( ) a designer bag that required being on a waiting list to get
( ) at least $100 cash in your possession right now
( ) more than two credit cards bearing your name
( ) a stock portfolio
(x) a passport
( ) a horse
(x) a trust fund
(x) private medical insurance
( ) a college degree, but no student loans

Do you:
( ) shop for non-needed items for yourself (like clothes, jewelry, electronics) at least once a week
( ) do your regular grocery shopping at high-end or specialty stores
( ) pay someone else to clean your house, do dishes, or launder your clothes
( ) go on weekend mini-vacations
( ) send dinners back with every flaw
(x) wear perfume or cologne (not body spray)
( ) regularly get your hair styled or nails done in a salon
( ) have a job but don't need the money OR
( ) stay at home with little financial sacrifice
( ) pay someone else to cook your meals
( ) pay someone else to watch your children or walk your dogs
( ) regularly pay someone else to drive you
( ) expect a gift after you fight with your partner

Are you:
( ) an only child
( ) married/partnered to a weathly person
( ) baffled/surprised when you don't get your way

Have you:
( ) been on a cruise
( ) traveled out of the country
( ) met a celebrity
( ) been to the carribean
( ) been to europe
( ) been to hawaii
( ) been to new york
( ) eaten at the space needle in seattle
( ) been to mall of america
( ) been on the eiffel tower in paris
( ) been on the statue of liberty in new york
( ) moved more than three times because you wanted to
( ) dined with local political figures
( ) been to both the Atlantic coast and the Pacific coast (in any country)

Did you:
( ) go to another country for your honeymoon
( ) hire a professional photographer for your wedding or party
(x) take riding or swimming lessons as a child
(x) attend private school
( ) have a Sweet 16 birthday party thrown for you

dave424 @ 2006-03-16T22:24:00

2006-03-17T03:35:27Z

STOLED FROM CAMILLE!

Turn on iTunes/Winamp/whateveryouuse and put it in random mode. Forevery question, press "next song". Enter title here to answer saidquestion.

1. How does the world see me?
Ali Project - Salometic Lunatic

2. Will I have a happy life?
Ocean Colour Scene - Get Away

3. What do my friends really think of me?
Ali Project - Arabesque Romance

4. Do people secretly lust after me?
Lenny Kravitz - Live

5. How can you be happy?
Tenmon - Through the Years and Far Away [In-story version]

6. What should I do with my life?
Nanase Hikaru - Fuan

7. Why must life be so full of pain?
Kaori - Do You Know the Magic?

8. Will I ever have children?
Griffin Chorus - Lilium ~Saint version~

9. Will I die happy?
Dolce Triade - Hello, Kitty Girl

10. What is some good advice for me?
Do As Infinity - Heart

11. What is happiness?
Yuki Kajiura - Maimu!!

12. What's my favorite fetish?
Ishige Sawa - Link

13. How will I be remembered?
Jason Mraz - The Remedy

14. What is your love life like?
The Pillows - Monster C.C

15. What is sex with you like?
Do As Infinity - Under the Sun

16. What's your life motto?
U2 - When I Look at the World

17. What do your parents think of you?
Taku Iwasaki - An Absolute Musical Character

18.What's your favorite hobby?
Rusted Root - Send Me on My Way

19. What does your best friend really think of you?
Nami Tamaki - Believe

20. What's the worst thing about you?
meg rock - Baby Low-Tension

21. Describe your mind.
Ocean Colour Scene - Downstream

22. How will you die?
Hans Zimmer - Honor Him

23. How does your crush feel about you?
Vox - Komm, Susser Tod

24. What is your wedding going to be like?
Anne - Detective on You!?

25. What about your honeymoon?
Eels - Your Lucky Day in Hell

26. Describe the last day of your life.
CHINO - Donuts House no Miss Lyan

27. Why does life suck?
Ali Project - Madame Noir

28. Why does life rule?
Toshihiko Sahashi - A Bridge to Tomorrow

29. What will you be famous for?
Chiba Tsunemi - Reloaded

30. What's the craziest thing you'll ever do?
Incubus - Wish You Were Here

31. Will you achieve your goals?
Mustard Plug - Yesterday

32. What will your future job be like?
savage genius - Itsuka Tokeru Namida

33. And your party life?
Dolce Triade - Vanishing Point

34. Overall, will you be happy?
Toshihiko Sahashi - The Scene of a Tragedy

35. Or will you just deal with it?
The Pillows - March of the God

This is stupid. But I guess I'll post it anyway.

dave424 @ 2006-02-23T19:54:00

2006-02-24T00:54:22Z

Get your own spectral analysis from Area 23^®

dave424 @ 2006-02-13T09:45:00

2006-02-13T14:47:01Z

Happy Valentine's Day, you filthy perverts.

dave424 @ 2006-02-12T10:28:00

2006-02-12T15:39:49Z

struckshunz:
1. Open up your media player or winamp or ipod or whatever, set it to shuffle.
2. Skip through the first 25 songs and list them.
3. Add "in my pants" to the end of each song title.
4. Bold your favorites.

memememememememe:
1. Ode to Power in my pants
2. Teardrop in my pants
3. Yasashisa no Guuwa in my pants
4. It's My Live in my pants
5. Hatsukoi in my pants
6. On and On in my pants
7. Oasis in my pants
8. Moshimo... in my pants
9. Agony in my pants
10. Solitude in my pants
11. Infared in my pants
12. All in a Day's Work in my pants
13. Criminal in my pants
14. Melodie in my pants
15. Monster C.C in my pants
16. Halation in my pants
17. Kouya no Heath
18. Plastic Smile (Nijiro guitar version) in my pants
19. Irasshaimase! Famires he! in my pants
20. Don't Look Back in Anger in my pants
21. Solitude in my pants
22. Subhuman in my pants
23. Bestrafe Mich in my pants
24. Under the Tracks in my pants
25. Radiance in my pants

Artieeests:
Yuki Kajiura
Massive Attack
Kajiura Yuki
Bon Jovi
Oohashi Megumi
Ocean Colour Scene
Do As Infinity
KOTOKO
KOTOKO
Tenmon
Strike Anywhere
Eels
Ayumi Hamasaki
Yuki Kajiura
The Pillows
ALI PROJECT
AKINO
HoneyBee (YURIA)
Yuki Kajiura
Oasis
angela
The Pillows
Rammstein
Creeper Lagoon
Kawada Mami

Eh, mine didn't come out very well or very funny

dave424 @ 2006-02-08T22:00:00

2006-02-09T03:01:50Z

Added a chart of my most-played artists to my profile. Updates every week, Sundays I think. Here's a preview if you're too lazy to click on my profile:

dave424 @ 2006-02-03T23:18:00

2006-02-04T04:21:17Z

dave424 @ 2006-02-02T22:18:00

2006-02-03T03:24:53Z

So um, nuclear weapons are bad.

There's something beautiful about this blast, but it's a decidedly otherworldly beauty. I watched a video of dozens of nuclear blasts and their effects, and it's just a terrifying thing to imagine. Mankind doesn't need power this great over mankind and nature.

So, random thought. But I felt like sharing.